Being in jail is one thing, but making the most of your jail time behind bars is another thing. You hear a lot of complaining, regretting and reminiscing by many inmates. Sure I had moments when I would feel down, but I would bounce back and check my emotions. First things first, I put myself in this mess and I am taking full responsibility of the consequences and the process of it all. How can I complain if I didn’t learn the other times? It just shows how destructive and addicted I was to gambling. During my time in jail, I made the best of it. I had time to reflect and deal with me. I realize that this world is full of distractions and amusements that blind and misguide us from our true inner being and self. There were many times when I felt more peace and ease in jail. I was alone and had time to really analyze my life. The world is a fast pace world. We work, school and stay busy. A lot of times, we never have time for ourself. Even Jesus himself told his disciples to sit while he goes up to Gethsemane to pray. Matthew 26:36 :”Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray”. Being alone is healthy. During those moments I had the best time with God. I prayed, read his word and journaled. I did an inventory of my life and what I need to fix before I am back into society. I did a lot of spiritual and personal fixing. Because if I didn’t fix anything then nothing will change.
I am finally opening up the journal that I journaled with throughout my incarceration. I will express some of these personal daily journaling with you. It is amazing how I can go back and reflect on those moments. One thing that I journaled a lot about was goal setting and dreaming about the future. I knew I was going to be out one day. I didn’t exactly know my release date, but I had faith that I was going to be home sooner than what the D.A was trying to get me. I set a game plan and what I wanted my life to be. I was confined and limited physically, but my mind wasn’t confined. I wrote down goals that I wanted to achieve once I got out. One of the biggest goals was to never come back to jail, to be a responsible father for Jericho and to not abandon him again. I remember being excited and motivated while I was journaling my goals. I knew that my future was going to be bright because I was growing spiritually. My Lord YAHWEH was working and renewing me. I felt his presence and his existence. I had time to talk and pray to him. I wasn’t distracted by the world, but was focused on the word.
One of the biggest goal for me is purchasing my first home by August 3rd 2020!! I ripped out some newspaper advertisement and taped it in one of my journal entre. I wrote down some specific details of how this future house will be. I didn’t let the confinement stop me from dreaming and goal setting. This is powerful. My drive and motivation is pushing me. These goals that I wrote is keeping me accountable with all my actions that I am doing right now. I am making it a committment to accomplish this goal. I can’t wait for you guys to see a future blog post of this accomplish ment.
Don’t let your situation stop you from goal setting dreaming. You might be at a stand still, but don’t put your mind at a stand still. I could’ve complained my whole jail time, but I didn’t. I was focused on the future and I planned what I wanted my life to become. I was tired of the results so changing the game plan was the right way to start a new life. I was confined within concrete walls, but I didn’t allow those walls to confine my goals for the future. Keep dreaming and keep goal setting. I want to hear your success!! As I share mine with you. Let us all strive and excel. We all got the seed of greatness in us, let us not suppress the gift Yahweh instilled in us. I believe in you. Focus, focus, and focus. Seek a higher power greater than you. God will open doors for you!!! Expand your mind and seek eternity. God bless you all!!